Meh.

I’m in a funk. You ever felt just “meh”  ?  Like, you just can’t play grown up more one day?  Yeah.  I’m there.

It could be because I just got back from a great week long vacation with my family and I’m suffering from vacation hangover. I was CRAZY lazy and it was awesome. Happy hour was moved up to 4pm and I only had to make dinner one night out of 7.   After lounging in the pool all morning, I took a nap and, all my kids were happy.   ALL WEEK! Pure bliss.

Or, it could be the fact that most of the appliances and cars in my house are failing left and right and we are hemorrhaging money. Over the course of 2 weeks, we have fixed the dishwasher, replaced the hard drive on my computer, purchased new tires for my daughters’ car, fixed the upstairs AC unit in my house and repaired my husbands’ 16 yr old car after it died on the highway.  Last night I noticed my washing machine isn’t draining properly and today my husbands ”check engine” light came on in his car. Again.

And, our first college tuition payment is due in 30 days.

Then again, it might be the beginning of summer. Even though I enjoy the summer down time….it means having to “schedule” life for my son Jack which takes a small village and…more money.   I dropped him off at camp this week where he will go for the next 8 weeks from 12-4pm. Not all day but, its something and that part is free! But, my heart pangs just a bit every time I drop him off. It is a special needs camp and seeing all the kids there just reminds me again that we are living a very unique life with significant challenges.

Lastly, it could be that August 27^th date when I drop my first born off to college that is looming over my head. Constantly reminding me that 1). I’m old enough to have a college kid 2) or that maybe I should starting ACTING like I have a kid in college 3) or, that my baby is growing up I’m going to miss her like mad.

I’m definitely a “glass half full” gal but, I will confess, these last few days…I’m hardly getting by.   (See what I did there? J )

However, today, while driving Jack to camp…he held my hand the entire way, like he knew I needed some extra love. That made me smile. I feel certain the fog will lift soon. Nothing a few glasses of wine, a handful of peanut M&M’s and some girlfriend time can’t fix.     Life is still good and I’ll take it over the alternative ANY day but, it just feels good to bitch a little bit ya know? Thanks for listening.